I didn't make the band and I know why. �I did something I shouldn't have on set. Without getting too into the details I should have asked permission before doing what I did. �I am sorry to all those�involved. �I love the project and plan on supporting all the girls who I worked with during the auditions. �Honestly�though I may go back to NYC. �I will do some SexyMandarin videos, but my heart was set on this and I didn't get it. �It was my fault and now it is time to start over.